The song replays in my head over and over. It isn’t the tune that lingers long after the Christmas Holidays; it is the implied meaning of the words: “Do you see what I see?” “Do you hear what I hear?” and “Do you know what I know?” I keep asking: Is it true—some see more, hear more, and know more than others?
Obviously, the characters of the song—the wind, the shepherd boy, and the mighty king—had different viewpoints from which to witness the miraculous birth of the Christchild.
The wind with no physical limitations could easily see “a star, a star dancing in the night with a tail as big as a kite” better than the little lamb.
The little lamb with no distractions should hear “a song, a song high above the trees with a voice as big as the sea” better than the shepherd boy.
The shepherd boy informed by an angel would know “a child, a child shivers in the cold” that the “mighty king in his palace warm” knew nothing about.
Each was in a place of optimum sight, sound, and knowing over those who saw, heard, and knew less. Or, could it have been their ability to see, hear, and know things in the spirit realm, and had nothing to do with where they were positioned? Regardless of what caused the disparity, it is apparent that some saw, heard, and knew more.
Is the same true of people? Some people see greater glimpses of God at work in the world than others. The still small voice of God—unnoticed and unrecognized by much of the world—is heard clearly by some. The Apostle Paul prayed that all the saints would know the width, length, height and depth of God’s love (Ephesians 3:18). Some do, but more don’t. Even the most perceptive among us are aware of only traces of God at work in our world. And what about me—how much do I see, hear, and know of the activities of God?
Moses obviously saw, heard, and knew more than the average Israelite. I think his forty days on the mountaintop were possibly days of sheer delight—days he didn’t want to end. At least, not end so that he could come down the mountain to deal with non-seeing-hearing-knowing people. Later, he asked to see God’s glory. God said that no one could see His face and live to tell about it. A compromise was struck—God granted his wish. He hid Moses in the cleft of a rock while His glory passed by, and Moses saw God’s back (Exodus 33:18-23).
Do I get that? God responds to those who want more. He only refused Moses’ request to see His face because God knew Moses couldn’t withstand such greatness! If I want to see God—He will let me. That is, He will reveal as much of Himself to me as I am able to endure.
I confess: I am not content with what I now see, hear and know. I want more. The more I get, the more I want. Seems I am never satisfied. More insight drives me to even more insight. Hearing His voice today makes me want to hear it again tomorrow. Knowing Him fuels my desire to know Him better.
How will I get more sight, sound, and knowing? The apostle Paul said, “…the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things” (Philippians 3:8). What was Paul willing to give up to fully know Jesus? All things. What will it take for me to fully know Jesus? The same.
In the meantime, here are the desires of this seeker’s heart:
I will continue to see glimpses—and O how wonderful those glimpses are!
I will continue to hear His still small voice now and then—striving to hear it above all other voices.
And, I will continue to know Him here a little and there a little—slowly and surely, as I am willing to give up those things that hinder me, I too will experience “the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things.” ~ Janie Kellogg
“Oh, the fullness, pleasure, and sheer excitement of knowing God on earth!” ~Jim Elliott
4 thoughts on “Confessions of a Seeker’s Heart”
Just read latest essay. Excellent! You touched on things with which many deal with every day. My prayer is that God sees far deeper into our hearts, situations, history, and our greatest needs as well as desires.
I believe He clearly recognizes our real needs as well as our desires. I trust that He will act to supply our real needs and to align our needs with our desires so that His purpose is fulfilled. Does that make sense?
Yes, your comment makes perfect sense. The Bible says that God gives us the desires of our heart. Personally, I think that verse can be interpreted to mean that for the child of God, even our desires come from Him. But I also believe the more common interpretation that when our desires are in line with His will, He grants them. And as always, thanks for the feedback! I look forward to your comments.
Awesome word! To know Him more! Our pastor spoke about 2013 being the year of more and that ‘more’ starts with Him! Thank you for your writings, enjoy them so!
Thank you, Cheri. I appreciate your comments. Yes, it needs to be a year for more for all of us–more of the things of God and less of anything else. God bless you!